Do you ever have those days- the ones where nothing seems to be going right, where you wake up late and have one stressful event after another, where you just feel down and upset and disappointed? And you feel like you SHOULD be able to pull it together but you just CAN'T?
Well, I have those days, too- more often than I care to admit (but then, don't we all?). Yesterday just started off BAD.... and then it just stayed bad. Instead of getting better, it seemed like one crushing defeat after another. And disappointment. Lots of it. Needless to say, I just WASN'T having a good day! I kept trying to shake it off, but not even a mocha and three candy bars helped! (True story, I'm a stress eater!).
So, in an effort to cheer myself up (or at least stop myself from breaking down in tears of defeat), I started listing off all the things I have in life to be grateful for... a technique I've talked about before. But to be honest, I didn't really want to. I wanted to wallow and be upset that my day was hard. Except I didn't have time for that, and so it began:
- I'm thankful for Jesus. For His grace, His mercy, and the hope I have in knowing that this world is not my home. What a blessing it is to know that when life is hard, and when the weight of the world is on our shoulders, we KNOW that this world, this life- it's not the endgame. It's just the beginning. Because this world is NOT our home. And I'm thankful to rest in that.
- I'm thankful for my family. For my parents, who are endlessly supportive, encouraging, and uplifting. For their strength and courage in the face of adversity, and for passing that onto their children. For their kindness, integrity, and love that make them incredible parents. And for my sisters. For their friendship and support, and for knowing they'll always be there. Maybe it's because we're stuck together, but I am sure glad we love each other and that they're my best friends.
- I'm thankful for my sweet Christopher. Never am I more thankful for him than when I'm having a bad day! He's the one I want to run to, the one I need to make me feel better, the one who listens and gives the best hugs and the coziest snuggles and who takes care of me so selflessly. I'm thankful for his calm and steady presence in my life. He always seems to be the one making my world right again.
- Oh, and of course I can't forget- my pets, aka the loves of my life. There aren't even words to describe how much I love my babies!
And THAT my friends, is when it hit me. I have EVERYTHING I need. Everything. I realized that nothing else mattered- none of the things I was worried about or upset about or disappointed in. Because in the grand scheme of life, those things weren't everything. They were barely even something. I've learned that people will disappoint us (because they're human), life doesn't go our way (because that would be too easy), and sometimes, life even sucks a little (hey, I'm just being honest). But you know what? Those are the moments where you hang on for dear life to your everythings. And when I looked at it that way, I said a prayer of thanks.
So next time you have one of those days where everything is going wrong and people are disappointing you, remember your everythings. They're all that matter in the end, anyway.